Today is very weird. I woke up, had my coffee and started to catch up on the news. Then I started having the vision problems that I had awhile ago. I ended up taking a nap for a couple of hours, woke and still had vision and balance problems. I went back to bed, and slept for another two hours and woke up feeling like my vocal cords were being squeezed. It made it difficult to talk above a whisper for nearly an hour.
I’ve been having intermittent problems with speech over the past several months, some days I have spurts and fits of sounding like I am talking gibberish. I can think and see in my mind the words, yet they come out all over the place, and sound like I am speaking a foreign language. Then there are days where everything flows and I sound normal.
If it wasn’t so aggravating, it would actually be funny. But not being able to communicate to others clearly makes some days extremely difficult. I know there is the possibility that as things progress with my body I may lose the ability to communicate verbally. I’m sure that there are some folks that can’t wait for that day, but in the mean time I have to deal with what to do on those days where my voice escapes me.
One suggestion I had made to me was a white board, but my hand writing is so bad, that it would look like I was writing gibberish. Another suggestion was to start recording words so if the day ever came where I can’t speak or speak clearly I could use a voice synthesizer to play back my own voice to whomever I was talking to. I know there are different options, and I will probably have to decide on something in the not to distant future. But for now I will simply try to be patient with myself and my body and keep holding on to my faith that, come what may, things will work out.